Welcome to another Tuesday! Only two weeks left of Biggest Loser Ottawa #2 and tonight, for the first time since the beginning, I took a step in the wrong direction. When I stepped on the scale tonight, it told me that I had gained over 2 lbs. Gained?? Gained!
I am very disapointed and frustrated because I was doing SO well. I had little things here and there this week that I shouldn't have had and I haven't been cooking up my dinners for the week in advance. Clearly this has had a major effect on my outcome this week so it's time to regroup.
While I am very down about my current results, I have decided not to stay down. I have decided that this has only made me MORE determined to be as strict on my meal plan for the remainder of the program as I was during the first week. I need to find the time over the next couple of days to look back over my meal plan. I need to pre-plan and make my meal decisions in advance even if I'm not able to make every meal in advance. I need to go back to measuring everything out and I need to focus more on my water intake because that has been lacking lately (even though I absolutely LOVE water).
I also need to go back to my Sunday cooking dates wth my mom. That was such a great time to bond with one of my two best friends (the other is my sister), who also happens to be my number one fan! My mom is so supportve and cooking my dinners for the week with her was something that we could do together. After hours of cooking I would sit down and enjoy one of the healthy meals with my parents, daughter and husband. Real, old fashioned family time. Sundays are definitely my favorite day of the week when we have time to enjoy each other's company like that!
Having gone back to work this week after being off for a month, I know that I will have less temptation to cheat. I eat both breakfast and lunch at work so if I don't bring anything I shouldn't eat, I won't eat anything I shouldn't eat. That's pretty simple math if you ask me (0+0=0)!!! It helps that my colleagues are extremely supportive and trying to eat well as well. We simply tell others not to leave treats in the office (or we give it to someone else) so it is out of our sight and we can't be tempted. We really do make a great team and support system for each other.
Now a bit about our workouts. I enjoyed our workout tonight because I like when we do the exercises as a group, all at the same time, even if they are different intensities. It just feels more supprtive for some reason. It was a difficult workout with Justin today and I'm still on the fence about whether I enjoy him as a trainer. Don't get me wrong, he is VERY good but I'm really discovering how every trainer is different in their own way and some are just a better fit for different people. For example my husband finds Justin's workouts to be his favorite and he uses all of the same trainers I do, but I find that I get my best workouts with Adrian. I like the fact that Justin's workouts are difficult and push us, but I find them much harder on my joints because they use a lot of weights (which my husband loves). I have to make a lot more modifications during Justin's sessions.
I walked into the session tonight wih a rheumatoid nodule on my thumb and sore fingers, only to discover that we were again using hand-held weights for the full hour. By the end of our session I was having trouble walking because I could feel the joitns in my toes flaring and nodules beginning in them. The best way I can describe that feeling is that it feels like walking with marbles glued to the balls of your feet. I really didn't want to show it though or to say anything because I didn't want to have to stop my workout. Now that I am home my finger joints are stiff, sore, swollen and forming more nodules. When the nodules are visible they look and feel like little grains of hard white rice under the skin, most commonly near the joints or in the pads of my fingertips and toes.
Even with the weight gain this week and my RA flaring a bit more each day, I am more determined than ever to bring in big numbers over the next two weeks and hit my current goal by our final weigh-in. I am determined to be really focused and to shock everyone with the final number on September 4th! IF I can manage, no wait...I WILL manage...to even pass my goal, just watch me!
